way up there

Sunday, November 1, 2009 . 8:20 PM

beautiful song, no? how i wished I could download it! it feels terrible with the same songs in my phone.. but David's songs are never leaving or replaced, so i guess its okay for now. for me. :)

its been more than awhile that i've been here..

hmm..

some major things happened the last month..

there was my Birthday, David Archuleta's Album release!!, Deepavali, Graduation, .. and now its 17 days before SPM is here knocking on our nerves. :) well, we've got the nerves now, so i can't see how it could get any worse.

just repeat after me : this is just another exam.

dont over think it, just repeat it :)

but there was also my poor Granny who fell down and she's been in the hospital ever since that Thursday before Deepavali. so.. the Birthday and Deepavali was on a low note.

although grandma's operation was on my birthday, mom made sure that i was okay by bringing me all the way to Damansara, the Curve, [ we got lost on the way there, too] and collecting David's Christmas From The Heart Album that i pre-ordered happily before.. so the pain never subsided but David melodies always helped with everything going on (and with the nerves, too!)

then the Graduation - also felt pretty awkward but alltogether it was fun.

although i dont get to see grandma everyday like i used to, she is always on my mind and in my prayers. i miss her so much!

sigh.. my 'personal growth' plan before SPM hasnt worked out. it just seems to me that i'm getting no where with my dreams.

but the dreamer just keeps on dreaming.. lol.

and as David's songs still play in my ears, i am so happy that he released a Second Studio Album even before one year of releasing his first! and now, already, he is working on the next pop album. (with self-written songs on the way!!)

congratulations. :)

sitting for SPM seems so small and insignificant comparing to releasing an album. :D

nevertheless, education is always important so i shall get my butt back to my study table now!

"I know i'll get there on my own."

Friday, October 9, 2009 . 12:10 AM

I will believe it when I see it.

... scratch that.

I will see it when I believe it.

Thursday, October 8, 2009 . 12:06 AM

"Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world." - Albert Einstein.

and that's why he's the genius.

Friday, October 2, 2009 . 10:31 PM

"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe." Anatole France.

recently, everything's been so confusing.

i dont know what to feel anymore.

smile .. for the happiness and satisfaction,

or frown .. with fear upon seeing the high expectations.

its silly really.

it was hard not getting there,

then it was hard trying to get there,

now its hard when you're already there.

it continues to get harder when you're trying to stay there.

it seems like everything i say, sounds wrong.

i cant get a word out edgewise without thinking about it over and over again.

what if im misunderstood? what if i say something wrong? what if i say something that im not suppose to say? what if saying it out all here would make matters worse?

i was never in this kind of position a few years back.

oh what a sad primary life i had. always been the one at the back, yet i always felt i could do something to prove people wrong and prove myself right.

oh God works in such funny ways.

just stay grateful and happy!

sounds easy, but gets trickier and tricker to do that!

seemed such a thrill at first, i was plesantly shocked. Add Maths has been a subject that i not really liked, and had multiple problems with.

i remember being unable to fall asleep, crying at the midst of a difficult question and loosing hope upon finishing the paper in time.

it was all such a big challenge.

and to have accomplished my goal that i had set for myself, not comparing it to what anyone else had gotten, i felt happy enough.

but then things got complicated. as always!

its so stressful. I need Einstein's help to pause time for a bit :) i just know he'd figure out something.

SPM is so near i might just get blackout before that. :(

i hold on the prayers, praying that this will never leave me.

despite the issues that come with it, i will learn how to deal with it, just don't leave me.

while my mind is still in a tangled mess, one thing's for sure.

i have loadssss of people to thank.

My mom. My dad.

My granny!

My family at large.

the teachers who taught me all i know.

teachers in school, teachers in tuition, and Yogendran!

the friends who stuck by - trusting me.

the friends who doubted me,

the ones who pushed me harder.

last but not least, God - who continues to bless me.

just stay happy and grateful!

all i'm asking is for a little understanding.

Monday, September 21, 2009 . 8:33 PM

there are some things that'll never change, ...

my adorable nephew. :)

... like how adults go all gugu-gaga and speak funnily in high pitched voices whenever they see babies.

he stared at me, he cried at me, he fell asleep on my shoulders.

just when you think it couldnt get any better than that, he suddenly played and smiled and laughed .... all to himself!

good times! :)

Sunday, September 20, 2009 . 6:52 PM

just wanted to say..

Happy Raya everyone!

yes everyone, because we're 1Malaysia! :D
yes i mean it. :D

there's been alot of articles about Raya celebration and the Ramadan month.. and it got me thinking..

Raya isnt Raya without ..... ?

Irfanah.

we had this silly "argument" - i guess you could call it that.
and what better time to forgive and forget than now?
its always "Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin."
yes.. so i just took all the courage i had and called her up.
and ...
we started laughing on the phone. :')

i love Irfan! i've never ever considered you not my friend, even at time when we are not talking and giving each other the silent treatment. i remember everything you've done for me, everything that we did together.
and you are a freaking true friend no matter what!
<3

this time, i missed out on the lemang, dodol, sate, rendang, ketupat, nasi lemak, and all the yummie cookies and delicacies.
but the best part of being Malaysian is..
there's always next year!!
and there's more to Raya than just the food. can't believe i'm saying that, but.. i realise that now.

Friday, September 18, 2009 . 12:34 AM

More on David!
so i was randomly just.. you know.
and i landed myself on this Vietnam fan site!
David's fansite of course..
and i found some pretty neat stuff! that proves a whole lot more about David himself.

she wrote a letter to him and asked him to draw her a heart. but she didnt leave him an envelop, so she said she didnt mind if he didnt write back. David being David obviously wrote back! he went and got a postcard and posted her! he didnt sign off that its him, as it wouldnt be a wise thing to do on a postcard.. but she knows its David. the handwritting, and who else would draw her random pictures of hearts? haha.

Brazilian fans send him this to fill up. i read it and it was so down right sincere and honest. how... mature and true, beyond his age.. his answers made me smile like a dim-witted soul, haha, but yeah

he advises all the time.

and i take it to heart cause he makes a whole lot of sense!

oh and this is just his little friend Totoro! :)

[it was his very first tweetpic actually! haha.]

i think i'll have sweet dreams again tonight.

thanks. :)

" you smile and never shout,

you stand out in a crowd,

you make the best of every situation. "

just remembering that finally watched the Hannah Montana episode that he appears in on tv the other day! watched on youtube but on tv its clearer and all. thanks to Briggs who called me and woke me up, haha. :)

gooood night!

Sunday, November 1, 2009 . 8:20 PM

Friday, October 9, 2009 . 12:10 AM

Thursday, October 8, 2009 . 12:06 AM

Friday, October 2, 2009 . 10:31 PM

Monday, September 21, 2009 . 8:33 PM

Sunday, September 20, 2009 . 6:52 PM

Friday, September 18, 2009 . 12:34 AM

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